Do We Need Another F.E.?!

Anong surname ni Yoda?!
Edi.. man!

Ano pang isang surname ni Yoda?
Edi..lehihu!

Pathetic. Star Wars jokes...it's been over a week. It's still funny to me. Haha. Corny jokes, people I need them to keep me grounded.

And by the way...it looks like I'll never be able to tell you guys what happened in New York. So What happened there, stays there? Haha. Maybe if we see each other (whoever's reading this), I'll tell you all about it...with all the sound effects and gestures...all that so you won't be bored. Te-hehe!

So for now... what's up now? With me..nothing's really up...excluding all the school stuff, that is. But I don't wanna talk about school or anything that involves school right now. My "Busy" entry is funny. I have the tendency to have illusions of grandeur. Haha! Criminy. "Omg! Like...hellloowwww.. I'm like...THE VP.." Shit. I hate that.

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On the serious side. THE FAMILY. What's up with the family. Hmm.. I'm great, actually with my family. That trip with my parents brought us closer together. My brother and I are good. Zaza and I..never been better..surprisingly. As a whole...we're really good.

Uhhh...not exactly. Something's missing. A-duh! Ate Erin. Hhmm. She's always been a mystery. We never know what's up with her.. she never shares. She's the earliest to go out of this house and sometimes, she comes home latest. But if she's early, we never get to talk to her because she won't dine with us, or she goes out. That's on weekdays. Understandable. She might really be hungry..I dunno. And we all know how she is when she's hungry. Fine. But on weekends? Hhmm. She still won't dine with us. When there's a family affair, she won't go. When we're gonna watch a movie, she still won't go. She'd eat her meals by herself. Spends all day/night either on the phone or in front of the computer. Refuses to be with us. I wonder why? I'm not mad...just...annoyed I guess and curious. We tried talking to her over breakfast, but she won't give us an answer. She'll say it's nothing but it's obivously something.

My explanation for a small part of her anger? Not getting any pasalubongs. So here's the thing. She didn't get any pasalubong because we didn't have money. Simple as that. As much as we want to give her something, we felt that it would just be a waste if we give her, for example..a Harvard shirt. She'll never wear it for sure. I'm sure we think differently because for me, I'd never give her..say a key-chain. Because I know that she wouldn't use it. It would end up somewhere and she'd forget all about it. If I'd give someone anything, it'd be something she can use. And honestly, I'm saving that money for me. Zaza was doing exactly the same. Our pocket money was HALF of what Mom gave her on her trip, and in fact that half was even divided in half since we were gonna share. Tita Babet took her out. She wasn't able to do that when we were there. Lolo and Lola weren't there so we didn't really get anything from them. When she was there, they gave her money and even gave her separate money to shop for us. Plus, all the other relatives gave her something. A-duh. Tito Emi took her shopping, gave her a make-over and who knows what else. We were travelling with our folks, meaning Dad would really insist on paying for everything we'll ever consume. Everytime we go shopping, Dad would give us the stare which would really just ruin the shopping experience.

Secondly...I clearly remember how I felt when she wouldn't lend me her frikking shades. (I sound like a small girl again. Damn..) I was complaining and whining (oh shit..we got a whiner too) why she didn't give us anything.. "She clearly just shopped for herself," I said. And her reply? "Eh aken naman yung pera na yun eh. Bigay yun sa aken." Yup. I remember her saying that. So secondly...her not getting any pasalubong is...well.. sweet revenge. Even my mom was bitter. She gave her one bag which was ON SALE. Same goes with my Dad. She gave her one BMW shirt, which was clearly from Tito Emi. When we were all shopping.. Zaza and I kept asking our parents if we'd get her anything. "Wag na. La namang binigay yun sa aken eh."

Typical human behavior. And so our Religion teachers were right. Don't do what you don't want others do unto you. Very un-Christian but...I guess that's how people are. Alicia Keys was also right. What comes around goes around, what comes up must come down.

But I guess, that's just a small part of her angst. Or it could be why she's really mad. But c'mown!! It's been 3 weeks! This ain't a one-way thing. Something has to come from her. She can't stay in this house and not live in it! So where is all this anger coming from?! Can somebody just make this clear?!