In This Moment I am Happy!

There are days when you just feel soo bad and there are days when you feel like you can't help yourself from smiling...for nothing, really. And today's one of those days. I think I just flunked my midterms for Finama, but I don't care. I'm just sooo happy today. Hayyy... I wish everyday's like this. I love it. I'm satisfied with just listening to my iPod and let my imagination take me places. Ahhhhh.....this is the life... Maybe I'm still in my vacation mode from my KL trip...

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I miss my girlfriends.. I miss the goddesses. Hayyy... I hope I'll see them this weekend...

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On our last night in KL, we had a really good talk about relationships and how men and women really think. I'd like to think that I am a woman with balls, which I think I usually am, but a part of me still likes the old fashioned stuff. There was a time when I really wanted to ask someone out but I couldn't because I fear rejection and he might find me too aggressive. So what does that imply? That I'm supot? The thing with me is I don't know how to flirt..seriously. I mean, I may like someone but most of the time, I tend to give the wrong impression. I'd all of a sudden act weird. Everyone hates assumptions because you're not really sure if your assumption is true, right? So I want direct questions..let me know from the start what you're after. To make everything clear. Fine, I know I'm intimidating so asking me directly could take a lot of courage, but I want someone who has a lot of guts to actually make me speechless and ask me out. What's so bad about that? Besides, women like being chased. It makes us feel important and loved. But then..when I get compliments..I dunno what to do with them. Hah!

What I gathered from the guys is that they'd rather go with someone whom they're sure likes them. So that doesn't work for me because criminy, you won't get anything from me. One of them actually likes the girls to make the first move because that's what he's used to. And that doesn't work for me either. They're all torpe which really sucks because I hate waiting.

That's one of the coolest conversations actually I had. Boys and girls freely talking about it. Those were honest opinions and feelings.

Hayy hayy... I'm tired of waiting...

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But as I said.. in this moment I am happy!