Death is an awfully big adventure.

Today, watched Peter Pan with Ikay. We had great seats and we really felt the magic of the show. The kids were great, the lost boys and lost girls, the fairies and the pirates. I've always loved Peter Pan and him being the only kid in the world who never grew up. I enjoyed watching it with little boys and girls around. Some were in their costumes and they looked so cute. They were really conatagious. It's exactly how it was in the movie, Finding Neverland. The kids' reactions were so infectious that even the adults were super amazed when Peter Pan was flying and Tinkerbell was spreading her fairy dusts in the air. I would have loved to watch it with my little cousins. I'm sure they would have enoyed it as much as I did.

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Last night, I got a text message from Cez. The message was that one of our high school classmates, Ecai is in the hospital in Cavite in a coma because of aneurysm and her parents are already thinking of pulling the plug. It came as a huge shock to me. Ecai was my seatmate and she was one of those girls that everybody loves because she's cute and she has her own little pet peeves: she loves plucking her eyebrows, putting powder on her face and she gets away with the teachers when she doesn't know the answer because she talks like a little girl. When I received the first message, I forwarded it to my high school classmates and it wasn't long before I received the same message from my other classmates. I was honestly thinking that she was going to die and that I'd probably be attending her funeral. It seems like such a bad thing now that I'm thinking about it. I didn't even consider going to the hospital because first, it's in Cavite and 2nd, we have an FE reunion and I haven't seen those people in a really long time.

On my way to CCP, I received a lot of messages about the plan of going to Ecai and visiting her. I really wasn't plan on going but then I realized, my classmates who live far from Cavite, are really going to commute all the way to the hospital just to see her. It also hit me that this may probably the last thing I would do for her. I borrowed the van and Kuya Colin so my classmates would be able to go there and visit her. So I just opted to skip the FE reunion. As always, it was a joy seeing my high school classmates: Nina, Tal, Ida, Gabo, Abby, Karla and Kim. We met up in Mcdo, Pedro Gil and as we waited for all of the girls to arrive, we talked about our lives and Ecai. We were feeling so guilty for having such a good time with each other since the reason for our meeting was to visit Ecai. But I guess, there's nothing wrong with it. We just enjoy each other's company and it's funny that after all these years, we're still the same people. We're no longer in high school and we're facing the real world on our own, but it's such a beautiful thing to see that we're still here for each other not matter what.

Seeing a friend on her death bed wasn't pretty. She was hooked up to the machines that were keeping her alive, and by alive, I meant her heart is still beating. Scientifically speaking, I guess she didn't feel us there. It was just faith that made us believe that she could hear us. We cracked up jokes, mostly the same jokes in high school: we ganged up on Kim. If Ecai could talk, she would do the same thing. We said our prayers and eventhough it was really impossible, we hoped that a miracle would happen and that she would open her eyes. Her parents are really gonna pull the plug tomorrow and let nature run its course. I would do the same, if I'm in their shoes. She's brain dead and even if she wakes up, she would be paralyzed. I would save her and myself the pain and suffering and just end it altogether.

Looking at her, I felt very sad because there are so many things in life she has yet to experience. It's such a waste that a young girl would die so suddenly, when she can offer the world so many things. Her boyfriend of one month was there and I thought to myself, she has just fallen in love, it's so sad that she won't be able to enjoy it more. And then it occurred to me: maybe this is God's plan for her. Maybe her mission here is done and there's more to her in another life. Nobody really knows what lies ahead when you embrace the light in the tunnel. Maybe there's more to all of this than we would ever know and it was her turn already.

Why are we afraid to die? There has to be more to life than all of this. I guess it's just human nature to fear the unkown. Let's just think of it the way Peter Pan does: Death is an awfully big adventure. So wherever Ecky Becky may be, I'm sure she'll face her new adventure the way she always does: armed with her pocket mirror, her comb, tweezers and powder.