Random Thoughts

My friend joined this photo contest and the deadline was today. The theme was "Anything Pinoy". We should've done it during the holiday season but I totally forgot about it. So yesterday we tried caputring Pinoy moments like the mamang sorbetero, the pedicab driver with an unbelievably expensive cellphone, the fishball vendor, taho vendor, and the old man who has only one tooth left with a huge smile amidst poverty. We were cramming yesterday. I printed out four of the best pictures taken. Turns out the deadline was moved to Feb. 25. Jeez.

Last night, I was watching My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiance. It was hilarious. Steven, an actor who plays as the big fat obnoxious fiance is driving Randi crazy. The goal is for Randi to convince her family to go to their wedding, with no one objections, for a million dollars. Randi has no idea that Steven is an actor hired to make her life a living hell. Randi comes from a middle-class family whose parents have taught them values and all the good things every child has to know. Last night's episode was when Steven and Randi was gonna meet each other's families. First was Steven's family, who happens to be a bunch of actors too. They had a belching contest, went to the hot tub with Steven's sister of about 23 playing dead, the dad taking off his trunks in the tub and the mom talking about how her son should know Kama Sutra. Then while preparing dinner, the mother measures Randi's hips if it would be fit for child birth and asking how big her nipples are since she breast fed Steve until he was 5. Hahaha!!! It was just soo funny. The next day was when Steven meets Randi's family. On their way to the yacht where they were gonna meet, Steven was pretending to have panic attacks. He even stopped the car and went to the side of the road to just lie down. What Randi didn't know was that Steve will play it really cool when he meets the family. So far, Randi's family likes Steven. What'll happen next week will even be better...Can't wait for that.

Another show I can't wait to see is The Amazing Race 6. There's this couple who annoys the hell out of me. Jonathan and Victoria. The guy's the biggest asshole in the face of the earth and Victoria does nothing but let herself suffer. Gawwd. But there's also this couple Kris and Jon who are very supportive of one another. They're just having a good time, no fights. They're both sexy too! Then there's Adam and Rebecca. The most immature couple there is. They're just so childish. Adam has the semi-kalbo cut but he has bangs in front that is tied in two. He was named hellboy by the Aaron and Hayden. They're both actors and Hayden is just annoying. She doesn't do anything actually. And then there's Lori and Bolo! The professional wrestlers. They keep making these stupid mistakes of whether to take a cab or the subway, making them behind but when it comes to physically demanding road blocks, they catch up but then they get lost on their way to the pit stop. Haha! Then there's the dating models, who does nothing but complain in the 3rd world countries they've ever been to. The guy wants to save money on hotels but the girl just had to take a bath or whatever. Argh. And then this week, the father-daughter tandem Gus and Hera were eliminated. It was expected though since Gus was a a fat man who is just slowing doen Hera. It's just really cute everytime Hera calls out "Daddy." I don't know what's gonna happen next week. I'm just excited to know where they're going, what extreme sports they will do and how these couples (groups of 2, but all who were left are couples) will do it.

It's just fun watching people in these reality shows. Makes you think, what would I have done or how I would have reacted when I'm placed in that situation. I mean, you get the chance to win a million dollars! What would I do for a million dollars...

A million dollars is a lot of money. I'm a very materialistic person. There are just sooo many things I'd like to have right now. I still have a couple of money left from my aguinaldo's and I can't wait to go to the mall and spend them. I've recently bought two tops and a pair of lorts (long shorts). I still want a pair of shoes and jeans. Gawwd. I'm even thinking of what I could do to earn money!!! I want more!!! Criminy. I feel guilty about it actually. I have this Ernie bank (It's Ernie from Sesame Street and not Miss Piggy..WEHH!) and it's just filled with coins. Before Christmas I asked mom to convert the coins to bills so I could spend them, right? But my parents told me to just donate it to this church and the money will help street kids go to school. That's good! So I agreed. Then my cellphone gets stolen. All of a sudden, I wanted to keep the money. Gawwwdd. And now that Dad replaced my phone with a new one (2nd hand 6610..not bad right?), I still don't want to give the money away! Ayayayayayay!!!

Hmmm...what else? Oh yeah let's talk about my love life. Or should I say my non-existent love life and the fact that I'm the only one in this house (literally..even our helpers have love lives..I dunno about Myra though..) who doesn't have one. Generally, I'm okay with it. I mean, in school, we're all not in a relationship. For some odd reason. Most of us has never even been in a relationship. We just laugh about it and we have this countdown that we're all turning 20 or 21. Then from iv-2, I have this single-since-birth-association or something.. I forgot. We all want a boyfriend but there's just no one around! We have this plan, actually where we'll switch schools (Tal's from Ateneo, Nina's from UP and I'm from La Salle..yes 3 members..but there's more SSB'ers..). I mean, I don't think I'll find him (whoever he will be) in La Salle. And they don't think they'll find it in Ateneo or UP. Hehe. Laugh trip all the way when we talk about it. It's like we're bitter but we're not.

And then I go home. Criminy. It's just frustrating. Like I think it was just 2 weeks ago. The four of us were going somewhere. Kuya Nono was driving and he asked Ate Erin what Jan gave her for Christmas. Then he asked Zaza. Then they asked him. I was just silent the whole time looking outside and listening to their conversation. Then they asked what he gave to Tricia. Then he threw it back at them. So I'm like totally OP'd. He asked me "Eh ikaw, anong binigay mo kay.." then he laughed. I knew it was a joke and I knew it was coming. So I just replied with a sarcastic laugh. Then I hear Ate Erin say to him like she was whispering, "Gago ka talaga.." Hmmm!!! So now they treat me like a leper and they just feel sorry for me? Criminy. So my brother tries to pretend like it's not a big deal, he asks me what if my barkada exchanged gifts or whatever. JEEZ.

So here's the thing. YES. I want a boyfriend. Actually that's not right. Having a boyfriend just for that sake of it is pathetic. I want to fall head over heels in love. Why the hell do you think with Before Sunrise, Before Sunset, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Never Been Kissed, My Bestfriend's Wedding and Meet Joe Black are my favorite movies?!?! I've been wanting to fall head over heels since I was what, 15? Among us here, I'm the one who wants to fall in love so bad. Everyone says I'm just soooo picky but c'mon. How do you expect me to just fall in love right away. I want that you'll-just-know feeling and I haven't felt that with anyone yet. It's too ideal, yes, but isn't it supposed to be ideal? But then again, what do I know, right? I'm just a romantic who has not experienced how it is to fall in love. What I do know, however is that a person can fall in love a lot of times in her lifetime but to fall head over heels in love I believe could only happen once. I don't know when that'll happen for me. All I know is that I can't hardly wait...

I know it's a cornball thing but love is PASSION, OBSESSION, someone you can't live wihtout. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? I say, fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how d you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm hot hearing any heart. Run the risk. If you get hurt, you'll come back. Because the truth is there's no sense living your life wihtout this. To make the journey and not fall in love--well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. Stay open. Who knows? Lightning could strike.
-Meet Joe Black


Love is when you look into someone's eyes and suddenly you go all the way inside, to their SOUL...and you both know, instantly. I always imagined I would fall in love, nursing a blind soldier who was wounded in battle. Or mayube while rescuing someone in the middle of a blizzard, seconds before the avalanche hits. I thought at least by the age of 15, I would have a love life. but I don't even have a 'LIKE' life...
-My So-Called Life