I woke up today with tears from my eyes...

I woke up at 230am with tears flowing down my face. I knew exactly what I had dreamed last night. I dreamed that I had died and I was 100% sure I wasn't dreaming. I really thought I was dead. I was in an explosion. For some reason, Ted was with me. We were together. I think it was some big event, probably like a concert because there were a lot of kids. First we were so happy and then BOOM! One big explosion from the right. It was soo far from us but it was really big and I felt that boom. Then people started to run. Ted and I ran to the left side. Then BOOM. Another explosion in the left side. It was very near and I was terrified. I knew somehow we're gonna get hit then BOOM! It was like slow motion. I saw the bomb (whatever it is) hit the ground and then I looked at everything around me knowing that was my last. For a few seconds, I felt my soul leave my body and it rose to the air. I saw my physical body get wiped out by the fire and all the people in it. As my soul watched the whole thing, it was screaming: "ayoko pa mamatay!!! ayoko pa mamatay!!!" Then really bright light took me.

Then the next part was I'm in my bed, wearing exactly what I was wearing when I went to sleep. It's like another OBE (out of body experience). I knew I was dead from the previous setting. So it's like my soul flew from that place to my bedroom and I looked down on my body. I really thought my physical body was lifeless but I wanted to live soo bad that I tried to position my soul exactly the way my physical body was positioned. But no matter what I did, my soul was separated from my body. I felt vibrations as I tried to do it. As I lay down, I looked at my right. I saw Zaza. She didn't even feel that I was struggling. Because I saw my body vibrate!!! Then I finally gave up. I thought of the people in my life and it pained me not having said what I wanted to say. I looked at my lifeless body and cried. A few minutes, I saw myself in another place.

I took a piss in some kind of public CR and what's weird was that I saw Ted again when I stood up. That's when I really thought I was dead because he was the only person I can recall who was in the explosion with me. I thought to myself that maybe common CR's in the afterlife were not unusual. I tried to catch him but he was gone when I opened the door. I looked around and the place felt familiar. I kept on walking in what seemed like an endless corridor. Finally got out and saw myself in DLSU's canteen, z2. Then I saw people. Some were familiar, some were not. I tried to look for Lui. My blockmate who died 2 years ago, but I didn't see him. I just kept on walking like I usually do in school but thoughts came into my head. I remembered my mom. Dad is in Indonesia right now so it would be double hard for my mom to know I'm dead..a few days before Mama and Papa's Golden Anniversary. Then in a split second, I was back in my room, looked at my lifeless body. I was contemplating on whether I'd visit my mom on her dream or not. Then I remembered the Golden Anniversary. It would be postponed. I'd be in a cauffin wearing the gown I was supposed to wear for the affair. Then I thought of my friends, my blockmates, my family. I began to cry. As I cried, I tried to position my soul back to my body. Then BOOM! I woke up with tears from my eyes. I woke up knowing exactly what happened, every tiny detail. I continued to cry for a few minutes. I thanked God for giving me a second chance at life.

I really think this is my 2nd life. Seriously...