Reality Check

So far so good. I'm enjoying my job. Yey! I'm in the history of Hinge Inquirer Publications. I'm the first Account Executive to close a deal within the first week of actually working. YEAH BEHBEH!!! I closed Lacoste, btw. Haha1

I've new girlfriends, I love it. Well not really new. Gi and Sab. They're inseparable and what's great about it is that they keep me grounded. Meeting so many different people at work is fun but these two girls are so like me that I stay true to who I am. Haha! Sab is like me because we're superficial. We love and hate the same things. The only difference is probably our guy preference. She wants play, I want serious. Haha. Gi, looking cute with her nose ring (that makes me want to have mine pierced again!), is also superficial but she's a self proclaimed dork so it's interesting. What I like I guess about us having lunch or dinner out, is that we say whatever we want to say without fear of offending each other.

Just the other day, we were talking about being housewives. Not just any kind, housewives of uber rich people, of course. When we were younger, we were trained to think that as women, we can do anything men can do, even better. So we all aspired to be successful women in our chosen fields. We all imagined ourselves to be ruling the world. But then seeing the lifestyle of the AB housewife, it's really not so bad: doing recreation stuff, getting fit and pretty, shopping and taking care of the kids. It's nowhere near the modern woman we all imagined ourselves to be. We used to look down on housewives, but thing is..NOTHING's WRONG WITH IT. Some women may be ashamed to admit it, but at the end of the day, we all just want to live in a beautiful house, own fashionable clothes, a sexy body, cute kids and a rich, handsome husband! A simple life like that, having coffee with the amigas on any day and traveling the world with your family sounds perfect. No worries about running a company or world domination. We all thought to ourselves: Why are we even working so hard now? Why don't we just go look for a rich man to seduce?

Haha! Sometimes, people imagine so many things that it's not even possible. Once in a while, we need to check in with reality. Just now, I'm thinking about being the AB housewife and my goals of world domination. And I remember Meredith Grey's mum. She's the best surgeon there was but didn't have the time to fight hard enough for her love life. And her reason? She didn't fight hard enough... Hmmm..doesn't fate play a role as well? Fate, destiny, or God? Sure, I mean some things are just not meant to be, right?

Let's take for example indie bands...

Some bands prefer to stay indie, and not become "sell-outs," or so they claim. These indie bands would prefer to stay unsigned because they say that only the real music lovers get to appreciate their music, which is only a very small percentage of the music listeners. In my perception, there are also groups of people who would choose to listen to indie bands and they do this for superficial reasons: they try to distinguish themselves from other music lovers. My opinion is this: being appreciated by a lot of people doesn't make a band a sell-out. In fact, some indie bands would say they 'prefer' to stay unsigned, but the truth is, no record company would want to get them because they appeal to a very small group, or simply because they're not good. I mean, if you're in show biz, you goal is of course to entertain people, and how would you know if you really are entertaining if the majority cannot appreciate what you're doing? But then you have to question the audience as well. Do they have good taste? But then of course taste is subjective. I mean, just because Boom Tarat appeals to millions of Filipinos, does it mean it's a good song? What about bands like Rivermaya or Bamboo, who cater both to the masa and the sophisticated audience? There are really two sides in everything..

But isn't it that luck plays an important role here? Even if you're talented and you have the "it" factor, if you're unlucky, it won't happen for you. "It's not in your destiny." So when would these bands step down the stage, call it quits, and possibly look for "real" jobs? Same with gold diggers who keep looking for rich men to marry. When would they quit doing that, look for a job and start working to support themselves?

They say God has a way of balancing things. Some people are blessed with material wealth but are miserable. Some people are poor in material things but are happy. Can I possibly rule the world and at the same time have a real life?

I'm just thinking aloud. I may have not made any sense but there. Haha.
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I don't want to be sick. Whether it's hormonal imbalance, auto-immune disease, whatever!!! I hate it!!! I want this all to end. My doctors can't even explain it. The reason is still unknown and it's literally making my life stressful. I'm not stressed at all. I don't think and stress about it. It's only when my mom would say I've another bald spot that I remember...or when I realize I've my period the for the third time in less than 2 months! SHIT!!!