Happy Thoughts...

Woopee. Aside from my birthday, I was looking forward to Valentine's. Yeah rigghttt. Thank goodness I had 2 tests today. Well..supposedly there were 2, but my Finama test was cancelled. The only occassion I'm grateful to have tests...

The good thing is, most of my college friends are unattached so we're all pretty miserable today. I'm just happy I'm not the only one who spent this day in misery. I'm not miserable, really. Steady lang. But after spending 20 frikking Valentine's Day of my life the same way since I was born...hhhmmm...not a good sign. The good news is, the day is almost over..30 minutes to go and things will be back to normal.

Another good news: Motorola Razr V3 is being sold today 8k cheaper!!! That's some good news. The bad news is I still cannot afford it and I'm thinking how I'm gonna convince my parents to buy me the phone. (I'm such a brat, I know!)

1. It's 8k cheaper!!! That'll only last til February 28!
2. It's my birthday and that's what I want...I don't have a car, I don't have a laptop, I don't even have my own room..it's been years since I had something I wanted for my birthday.
3. I'm beginning to have my 3rd child syndrome again. (This is a good one!)
4. I'm lonely. I don't have a boyfriend..I'm the only one in this house who doesn't have ANYTHING! (Wahhh!!!)

I think that's about it. I should use my persuasion skills, eh? But then again, we'll never know when my sister will ruin it for me. What's up with that?! Like for example, Friday, when Ate Erin's friends were here. I was drunk and Jan-frikking Sanchez threw me in the pool. As far as I know, she was already upstairs, asleep. But when I emerged from the water, she was there. I was having a good time and I was laughing my ass off when she said right to my face.. "WAHAHAHA! MUKHA KA NANG TANGA!" with her finger pointing at me. Jeez. I was clearly aware that I was wasted, and obviously everyone else there too, knew that. She didn't have to say it. She just...ruined the moment.

*Happy thoughts...happy thoughts...

Saturday, a day being the third wheel once again. But I didn't care. I wanted to go to Market Market. At least I had free pizza. We were all hung over. Jan was just weird. He just ate...all day. Then it was Sab's birthday party. I got there early. Wasn't supposed to be, but Jan and Ate Erin all of a sudden had a LQ in the car. We were supposed to go to Greenhills. Criminy. I dunno why they fight over little things. It's really just pathetic. Can't either one of them just let it slide? But that's just me, and what do I know about these things. We got lost and then Ate Erin were making side comments..and the next thing I know, I was in an awkward position. So I decided to just sing whatever's playing on the radio.

Made the entrance of my lifetime in Sab's party. Thank goodness only 2 guys were there to see it. I was sleepy. I was stretching on the way there and then I saw these 2 boys. They were looking at me, so I smiled at them. The weird thing is they were just staring at me. Gawwdd. So okay...fine let them stare. Whatever. Then *toink*. I had to slip. Frikking slip in front of those 2 Atenista's whom I don't even know. I had to grab on to the post, that's how bad it was. And they continued to stare. No smile, no anything. All I could say was "O entrance diba?" Haha. It was embarrassing, but I find it hilarious. Had to catch up with everyone. And I was soo happy to have bonded with Therine once again. I haven't had that kind of talk with her for years. I was just delighted to spend time with her.

Ida and Tuts. I can't believe she thinks he's ugly. Haha! Typical of us. But he's a funny guy. He's kind and he's a surfer dude. Ohhh yeah! He's a nice guy and that's what counts. So I'm really happy for her.

Hhmmm...my birthday's coming up but I'm just wishing for that Motorola Razr V3!!! I'm also excited about going to Puerto Galera. Now here I go again... Tal and I wanna go ther on Feb 25-27, and we're inviting all the girls. The thing is, I've already asked everyone weeks ago, to reserve that date in case I'll do something for my birthday because I want to go to the beach with them. But now, I told Ida about it and she wants me to move the frikking date because she's going surfing with Tuts. Argh. She forgot?! I'm disappointed.

I love them and all but sometimes it's really frustrating. Everytime I ask them if they want to go surfing or wakeboarding, they're all excited but then at the last minute, they'll cancel. I know, sometimes it's really not their fault they had to cancel. But then I hear them talk about when they went to Hundred Islands or Galera with their blockmates, or they went to this party or whatever. I'm not feeling jealousy.. I mean, it's cool they're having a good time. But when I want US to have a good time, it seems like it's not important? I dunno.

Or maybe I'm feeling that sense of singularity where I want to do something that they're just not into. I feel like I'm stuck with boring people...even my blockmates... I want to try so many things..things that I should be doing with my friends like wakeboarding..but they're not up for it. Even if Abby says she wants to go, there's always something that prevents her from doing it, which in return stops me from doing it too. I mean, if there's a will, there has to be a frikking way.

Or!!! Maybe I'm the one who is boring... I keep thinking that I should be doing all the things I want to do with these people... I've caused myself to be stuck with these people. NOOO....

*Happy thoughts...happy thoughts...*