OBE

Nothing seems to be cheering me up. My cousins were just here and I was supposed to go to EK with them. They had free tickets but I didn't feel like going. I just don't feel like doing anything.

I want to stop time. I don't wanna turn 20 yet. Not yet. Maybe I'm not ready yet. What do they call this in Psychology? Am I experiencing a crisis? Damn.
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It's fucking weird but I'm scared of sleeping sometimes. These out of body experiences are making me nuts. Whenever I close my eyes to sleep, I feel it. It's like my soul peels off itself from my body and I hear this long peep sound. Then I'll feel paralyzed. It's really scaring me. But I'm doing research right now about it. Apparently, a lot of people OBE. They think that being able to do this is a special gift. And once a person has mastered how to do this, one will be able to Astral travel...go to different places or even visit friends in their dreams. Really cool. Paralysis is normal because of the separation of the soul from the body. Come to think of it...since we spend 1/3 our lives sleeping, with OBE's, we can do so much. I'm beginning to consider this. I mean, since I've done it once consciously, I could try doing it again. Maybe later. Then I'll visit you in your dreams. Haha. Of course, you'll never remember the things I'll be saying, but you'll just remember that I was in your dream. I'm getting excited. Now, I'm talking too soon. I may not be able to do this, but I guess I'll try...

Last night, I dreamed of the tsunami hitting Puerto Galera. My golay. I was there and I felt myself in the water and hitting a wall hard. I swear, I felt them. Then I remember seeing myself in my bed, coughing the water out. Gawwdd...it's really weird.