A Whole New Me

I passed the test. Yes. A friend even told me I got the highest score. If he only knew it was my 2nd take. But if its any consolation to ME...I didn't remember a single thing from the last time I took it. It was a completely different test. Well.. I couldn't have done it without my prayers. AMEN TO THAT. So prayers really work... And yes..I find myself happier these days..

I had a dream last week. I passed the test and my hair was short. I've been planning to chop my hair off for weeks now. And I did it already. It's short again. I love it. I'm regular to the gym now, and I play tennis again. This is definitely a whole new me. I've been waiting for this for so long. Hayy... I'm just so happy.

I talked to my cousin last week. I dunno if his WHOLE family still reads this thing. Hehe! He's like the guy version of me. Well..I'm not half as good a writer he is and not nearly as eccentric..but as we both put it, we have shitty lives. Actually..I'm done with that shitty part. He's in that stage now, but I know he'll be able to get through all that. That's the power of the PTF! Besides..his life is so shitty now, it couldn't possibly get any more shitty. We're strong individuals. We're smart people who made stupid mistakes. A part of me is maybe thankful it happened to me because it made me a better person. There's just a lotta things they don't teach you in school. There are stuff you just have to find out for yourself. Maybe it's good that we made these mistakes now, when we're young. I mean that's the point. We're young and we're allowed to make mistakes. When we're older, we'll look back and simply smile. This shitty experience has made us understand life a little better.

Life is full of ironies. When we were younger, I remember the two of us. Among all of us, we're like the only ones sure of who we wanted to be. He was supposed to be THE doctor and I was THE lawyer. Everyone supported us, of course and I always remember my Dad. He used to be so proud of me. When introducing me to his friends, he'd always always say that I'll be a lawyer. I dunno about his dad though. I remember Lolo doing that too. Oh well.. college came and the nightmare starts. Turned out, we were so screwed up. Really...who would have thought right? Even our Lolo, an incredible photographer whom I'd like to call an artist doesn't want us to make art as a living. He knows it's hard. Dad used to tell us how hard it really was. But art flows in our veins...I just hope at least one of us gets to have a choice. I hope Eona will.

When I had my interview last week in the Marketing Department, the teacher asked me if I'd be working for a marketing firm. I said sure. Yeah right. The biggest lesson I've learned in the 19 years of my existence is that life doesn't turn out the way you planned it. And I guess that's what makes my life so colorful. I've planned out my life at a very young age and look at where it got me. I've had so many twists and turns. Now, I dunno what to expect. Take my hair for example. I've been planning to grow it for almost 3 years now..and then just last week I decided to have a haircut just like that and boy does it feel good!Oh and yeah..I just got a white Himalayan cat for only P500. He was named Fluffy but Dad seconds ago, just changed it to Max. I like the new name better. Haha..so a new haircut, new course and a new cat. Wow, huh?

And by the way..if you're asking why the hell I got a cat instead of a dog... I've always preferred cats over dogs because they're just so..elegant. They're so graceful and when they stare with their big eyes..you know they're really more than what you think they are. Besides...dogs are overrated.