Get over it damn it!

As much as I want to get over my frikking phone..I still can't. DAMN IT! My parents know them now, finally. Had to lie about one tiny detail. Didn't leave it in a table. It was in my bag. But who cares..man! It's still all because of my fucking carelessness. However! Which is worse? Being careless or stealing?! Jeez man... I'll never be over this.

Holy week.. First time my family's spending it at home...meaning we're not in a beach somewhere. As Father Jerry Orbos calls it, we're "artista's" this time. This year, we're pretending to be devout Catholics, going to mass, remembering really the essence of Holy Week. We used to be the "bakasyonista's". Of course, I prefer to be the bakasyonista. That's who we are! Being artista's suck. We're just here at home, bumming around, doing nothing really productive. I mean, we don't even pray or whatver. I've told myself I'll jog every morning this week, but heller!!! I've no alam to wake me up in the morning..and alas, everything goes back to the frikking cellphone. Argh!!!

We went to Father Jerry's recollection (?) last night in Saint James. Same old Ilocano jokes..nothing really new. Plus, Dad gave him our cakes! Ohhh the cakes. Man... I wanted those cakes from Conti's!

I told God I needed a miracle. I'm in desperate for a miracle. Yesterday, we couldn't connect to the internet. I actually thought I won't be having any contact whatsoever from the outside world. I mean check this: I don't have my cellphone, our phones are all under repair, and the internet's not working. Well surprise. The internet does work. Woohoo! I'm the only one who is aware of this. I was just playing PopCap Games when I tried it out then tada! I'm soo happy. But it's frikking 1030pm. There's no one really online. Can't talk to anyone. Arghhh.. So is this the miracle I've been asking. Nope. I don't think our DSL's been disonnected. I just fixed it. Haha! I removed the dial up and everything's okay. It sometimes disconnects though..but I'd say it's pretty fine. So what miracle am I asking for? For that thief to realize that what he/she did is wrong and return my phone!!! Now, that's a miracle. And that other thing...

What have I been doing this Holy Week? Hmm... Meet Joe Black has been shown in Star Movies twice already since yesterday. Actually, according to my parents, they saw it the day before that so this morning was the 3rd time already this week. Just finished reading The Virgin Suicides. It's interesting. I just didn't like the fact that it had a lot of side stories. I can't wait to see the movie. And it's another day tomorrow. It's starting to get really hot though...really hot.

Oh yeah..I've been glued to the TV.. I've been wanting to sing so I've spent most of my TV time singing along in Myx. Hehe. I really watched Backtrax so I'd know more of those corny songs. Bryan Adams, Atlantic Starr, Richard Marx..those sappy love songs..hehe..I love it.
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Drama Queen. Haha! Kuya Nono and Zaza was making fun of me last night during our so-called "recollection." They say, I turn into the drama queen when I want something from my parents like the cellphone I just lost. Yeah ok, I admit, I wanted that phone but I told them already about it days before. Even weeks before that I didn't want to do anything for my birthday..just the phone. Besides, I'll be a Royal Slave for the rest of the summer..well I am now..and it'll probably last for the whole year. What's bad is now, I'm working for nothing. DAMN IT! The dinner out with my barkada was just that. It wasn't my birthday dinner or anything.

Kuya Nono is actually making a big deal out of it. I wouldn't care what he wants to do on his birthday. Ask them to buy you a car, for all I care. But that's not likely to happen because you're already working. So treat the whole family for dinner, except me, I wouldn't complain. ;P

So why the big fuss? Hhhhmmmm... I have my ways of getting what I want. Which is really cool..doesn't always work..but we all have our ways of getting what we want. For my brother actually..he doesn't really have to work his ass off that much. He usually gets what he wants. And I'm not just saying this. I dunno being the only son? The first grandson? I dunno. His charisma? I really dunno...so stop complaining ayt! And before anyone says anything..I'm not feeling any middle child syndrome regarding this matter. We're all equal when it comes to getting what we want. Haha!! Am I even making sense?

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Is anyone kind enough to let me borrow his/her phone temporarily??? Puh-lease.. =)

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Thougts coming out and it's not organized.. what else should I be putting here? Oh yeah. My prayer notebook. It's cool I love it. It's like another journal but it's more personal and I don't whine there. I just place there the things I should be thankful for and my doubts in God or whatevs. Wow. I'm having a deeper relationship with God, huh? Really cool... so aryt.. I dunno what else..next time!