Just A Little Bit and I'll Get There

Hayy...I love Maria Mena!!! Just bought her album 2 days ago and it's amazing. Her songs are just filled with emotions. It's witty, touching, humorous, dramatic... Obviously I'm loving it.

These past few days, my "steady" attitude seems to have not been working. As much as I want to believe that things happen for a reason and I let some things pass, I can't. I felt like I needed a boost or something. Then a friend I've only recently met texted me. She asked me if I was up for a VTR. Hmm..VTR, eh? She must think I have what it takes. Wow. I started to feel good. I asked her what's it for. And she said that her agent was looking for a "pretty chinita girl at least 5'5". Hey, those are her words, not mine. So okay. She thought I was pretty which was cool. But heck, do I look like a frikking chinita girl who's 5'5? Damn. So I told her I'm not what her agent's looking for, but I was interested. Oh well. At least someone thought I was pretty. Haha. That's a boost I guess. And then she apologized. She thought I was Fil-Chinese but she wants me to meet her agent, "he'll like you." Okay. Yeah man..anytime. I need money!!! I want money!!! Well..Kokoy still owes my a thousand bucks and we'll be seeing each other on the 15th. That should be good news but then again, he owed me that money since February. Man..if I was just a little bit taller.

I've been spending time with my "boys" again. Haha! They've confirmed once again I was one of them. But it's fine. I've missed hanging out at Yuchengco talking about all sorts of things, not eliminating sex, porn and girls. Man...do I miss having those talks?! Haha! It's always a laugh trip though when we're together.

I was just watching Sex and the City and it was hilarious. Charlotte's wedding goes wrong after all the preparation she's done. I could relate to that!!! So here I go again talking about how perfect it is for me not having a plan or a goal. Well, not really. I'm sort of thinking of a goal.

So what do I want to happen with my life?! Damn..what a question. Well, what's there to ask?! I've asked myself a thousand times how the hell I got here and I've stopped searching for the answer. I'm here, and there's nothing I can do about it. I've realized that the only thing left to do is just let it be and move forward. Right. FORWARD!!! So I think I'm doing the first step. I'm now taking my majors (finally!). Then what? I'd explore the world and find who I truly am?! Jeeezzz... Taking tests in Emode sure is helping! Argh!
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I don't wanna think about it...As for now, enjoy listening to Brandon Boyd's words.."love is verb here in my room!!!!" Hayy..this is the life pare!

There are a lot of things I should be excited about. Lolo and Lola will be coming home soon. Yey!! I just watched today's episode of The OC involving Seth's grandma having cancer. I'm just so lucky to have my both set of grandparents alive. We're in fact preparing a big party for all of them on their 50th Wedding Anniversary. Man! "Doesn't that make you envy, doesn't that make you proud?!" Oh yeah. I just watched The Notebook about 2 days ago and yes, that's something to be very proud of. Not a lot of relationships last that long. Sure Mama and Lola nag Papa and Lolo all the time (and I mean ALLL the time), that's how things work. But when they're both happy, they're soo cute to look at.

Secondly, that "session" with my cousins. I think for the first time ever, we're gonna get drunk together. That's gotta be fun. I just hope I won't do anything stupid that would be caught on video or pictures. And JEMA will have an acquaintance party. Now I'm not sure whether I'll be hosting. I'd sure love to host, saving myself from playing silly games that Jan thought of. Haha. What else?! Oh yeah..Ateneans and the Thomasians will be having their sem break. We've planned to go to Subic again. Yey! I really wanna go to the beach!!! (Meaning, I have to work out in the gym double time!). Then at the end of the month, my family will be spending Halloween and Mom's birthday in Laoag. I've never been there, and they said the beach is nice there. YEY!

Whoa..I'm missing out on school, right? Midterms coming up. Damn. I know I should study. I've been telling myself that but I can't get myself to do it...Grr...