Christmas Eve

Criminy..it's 2 minutes til Christmas and I'm writing an entry. (Well...30 seconds ago, I just finished writing but I accidentally deleted it...damn! It happens to me allll the time!) I'm still bummed about my phone cos I can't text my friends and loved ones. Damn!! Everytime someone texts me..I have to reply and ask who it is. Argh... If there'd be a Christmas miracle..I want my phone back!!!

But no... I have to save money and add it to the money I received to buy a new phone. I want the same exact model..if not..a better one. With bluetooth, camera, video recorder..the works!!!

It's a good Christmas though. My relatives were here just a few hours ago. The kids (which included the four of us), danced. Hehe. It was fun. More of that!!

Merry Christmas!!!

My Christmas is Ruined...

I lost my phone!!! Why did it have to happen to me?! When Christmas is only a few days away?! Crimeny. I was just texting Karla about her Lola who passed away. I was giving her comfort.. Arghhh!!! I'll never say it's my fault because all of our things were there!!!

The night before, I had my reunion with iv-2. I organized it actually. It was really good seeing my high school friends. Although not everyone was there, we had a good time reminiscing our high school days. We even updated our phonebooks!!! So why why why?!?!

My first cousins (mother side) were here. We practiced for our "production number" for the Arcega Reunion. As expected, with my little cousins around, it was chaos. It was really noisy and messy. But it was great having them here. Spending 'quantity time' with them was fun fun fun.

Then we went to have our picture taken in the Picture Company. We squeezed in all 11 butts in the car to get to Town. We were in white and orange. Then we had our costumes. It was beautiful. The little girls were in princess costumes. Raymond was a cowboy. RJ had a sword. Kenneth was a pirate. Kuya Nono, Raprap and Kevin were princes. Zaza and I were butterflies. Ate Erin was some kind of bohemian-like angel. Haha. And while our pictures were taken, that's when my phone was stolen. Arghhh! I can't believe it!!!

Now, I can't settle for just any phone. Of course, I want the one with the camera and video recorder. And that's gonna cost a lot of money!!! I had loads of pictures and videos there!!! of Incubus, Linkin Park, Hoobastank, Mama's video of falling asleep, RJ ROck, Mr RJ Mulonggong, RJ Ball, Goddess Shampoo Video, Goddess VJ's for a Day, our Retard video, the Edge of the PI video..argh!!! This is TOO depressing...

It's All Over!!!

Tis the season to be jolly!!! You know why?! Because I'm done with school. For this term, I mean. I'm done with Statistics, Accounting (that was my LAST Accounting subject!), and our Marketing Research paper. Well.. I'll probably miss doing that. I had a great time with my groupmates. Or at least with Madel and Chris. It's just too bad we only got an 89. I was a little disappointed. I mean after all those sleepless nights?! The good news is we've passed the revisions and hopefully our grade will be pulled up. It was really fun making the paper. Maybe because that's like the first major thing I have to do since I've been taking up all these floating subjects since first year! I stayed for as late as 6pm in school for that! Imagine?! I never do that!!! I hate staying in school for school work. Hehe!!! Well it was 50% school work and 50% laugh trip. The three of us, Madel, Chris and me are three very different people who think very differently. Sometimes when we're explaining something, we don't get it but we pretend we do and along the way, we actually get it. It's crazy. It was worth it though. I mean...it was my first time to bake (not with the ready made stuff but with the actual recipe from a cook book!) and it was a success! By the end of the term, everyone in our class knew what Coffee Puffs were. Haha.. Well! The great news is! IT'S ALL OVER!! I can sleep as much as I want to! (Not really..I'm gonna start working out tomorrow!)

There are things that I want to stop but I'm incapable of stopping it. Argh. I want this pathetic little crush to end. I mean it's soooo childish! Gawwd. A crush?! Jeez. Same frikking guy. The good news is we're not awkward anymore. We're turning out to be good friends and I'm very happy about that. I mean, sure it's funny how sometimes I get so giddy over some thing but I want it to stop! Crimeny. He's giving mixed signals and I might be reading them the wrong way or whatever. But he keeps dropping these bombs! And I wanna explode. First of all, he stopped texting me about our shows. Then all of a sudden when I ask him about something for school, he'd tell me he's happy I texted. And I fall for it everytime. I'd text him some more and he won't reply. I hate it. And! This morning! Gawwd. After my Accounting test, I checked my phone and he texted me asking if I'm done with the test and that he was just bugging me. And I fell for it again! I was again, left hanging with no frikking reply. He's so annoying! But I can't resist his frikking charm! Arghh! I've made up my mind, however that's that. A simple crush. He's not my type. The situation is like..he's too good..he's like a genuinely good person for me (I dunno why I have a problem with that though..) and I'm too much for him to handle. Haha. Oh the insanity!

Last week last week. I was a frikking zombie Friday night but Kokoy's invitation for a movie with Ikay and a friend was hard to turn down. I was looking forward to seeing Kokoy and Jong actually. Not that, I'm not excited to see Ikay! It was disappointing that Jong had to do something though. But I felt like I had to talk to Emilky one on one. I feel a little responsible for his situation now and I really wanna get my message across. We're all concerned about him. However, his elf-looking friend, Tonic was there. Can't blame them. They haven't seen each other for a long time and they talked about all sorts of stuff. I find him al little stupid though. Well..maybe not stupid. He just thinks differently. According to his dictionary, piracy isn't stealing because when you do that, you're just copying the thing. He doesn't know intellectual property obviously. Just like the Filipinos aren't Asians. We're Malays. Great! He might be a good friend, but he's just injected another poison into my cousin's head. He's not in college because now, he has a job that has something to do with computers and he says that "I'm going to college when I see the need of getting a degree." I wanted to chop his hair when I heard that...and worse, when Kokoy said, "Yeah man..that's the way to go." It's such a shame really. My cousin looking up to this guy for living like Neo..as in Neo from The Matrix.

Anyway, the movie picked by the ever indie film aficionado was amazing. "Bunso" was a documentary about young boys in prison. It's very touching and it's one of those films that shots you right at the heart. Those boys do not deserve to live like that, having parents they have. Seeing their situations made me once again, ask God why some people had to suffer. I felt so helpless. It really tested my faith once again. Maybe it's on of God's little movies. Those kids are actually angels. Sheesh. Listen to me.. I don't even believe in guardian angels.

Pinakita ng "Bunso" sa aken na tunay namang napakapalad kong magkaron ng magandang buhay, mga magulang na naghahanap buhay at ibinibigay sa aken ang mga kailangan ko at higit pa. Ngunit nang makita ko ang mga paslit sa bilangguan nalungkot talaga ako. Isa sa mga bata, minalas sa magulang. Lasengga ang ina at nambubugbog na ama. Nag-away pa nga sa palabas. Malaki ang tiyan ng nanay, di malaman kung dahil buntis o dahil sa alak na iniinom, may hawak ngang malaking bote nung pinakita. Nagkukwento sila ng kanyang asawa tungkol sa anak. Nagmamalinis ang tatay at naka pomada pa talaga ang buhok. Dinidisiplina lang daw ang anak sa ginawa. Nakulong dahil sa pagnanakaw, tulad ng karamihang batang naroon sa loob. Hindi naman niya sinasadyang magnakaw. Nagutom lang siya talaga at di nakayanan kaya't napilitan. Matira matibay pa rin talaga ang sitwasyon ng mga mahihirap. Pero humirit ang nanay na lasing. Sinabi daw ng asawa niyang papatayin nito ang bata oras na makalaya. Kawawa nga naman talaga. Nang lumaya ang bata, sabi niya'y hindi na niya ulit yun gagawin. Atat na atat makapiling ang pamilya at ang nakakabatang kapatid. Tumatalon talon pa pauwi. Ngunit nang papalapit na sa bahay, biglang nanamlay. Nang makita na ang ina, sinabeng masakit ang ulo. Sa tingin ko, masaya siya at nakalaya na siya pero naharap naman siya sa isa pang problema. Ang kanyang pamilya. Malas. Pero ang nakalulungkot talaga ay sa pagtatapos ng pelikula sinabing naglabas pasok pa siya nang apat na beses. Nagkaroon ng sakit habang nasa loob, at di nasagip. Namatay.

Ang isa pang bata doon na talaga namang kinaawaan ko ay naroon din dahil sa pagnanakaw. Binibisita ng ina. Pero putang ina naman talaga. Limang buwan nang nasa loob ang anak at di maasikaso ng ina ang kaso ng anak. Sinisisi rin ang huwes. Pero ang nakakaawa talaga ay ang bata. Nagrerebelde na nga. Ayaw nang kausapin nang matino ang ina. E pano ba naman iyon? Pagpasok pa lang ng nanay nito sa bilangguan, hindi man lang nito binigyan ng halik o yakap ang anak na nangungulila sa kanyang pamilya. Binatan ba naman ng ina na "Kung sino mang nagsabing makakalaya ka ngayon, mali." Punyeta. Gusto kong sabunutan ang nanay. Kaya tama lang na magalit ang anak. Kasalanan nga naman talaga ng mga magulang kung bakit siya naroon. Nagrereklamo at kitang kita ang galit sa mata. Lumipas na ang kaarawan niya, hindi man lang dinalaw. Masyadong mahaba ang limang buwan para sa bata! Nagsasagutan ang mag-ina sa loob ng preso habang nanonood ang mga bilanggo. Dahil bata at binabastos nito ang nanay, kinampihan ang nanay. Inakala pa ng nanay na nag-aadik ang bata. E kahit sino pa yun, pinapaasa ka ng kalayaang hindi dumadating dating, maloloko ka nga naman talaga. Naging mistulang payaso na nga ang bata sa loob, ginagawang pampalipas oras ng mga preso. Natuto na ring lumaban sa matatanda pero dahil paslit, hinahayaan na lang. Naiintindihan ko ang bata. Galit at paghihinagpis ang naramdaman nito. Paulit ulit niyang sinabing walang kwenta ang magulang at hindi nito alam ang pakiramdam nang tumira sa loob. Walang magandang nasabi ang nanay. Nag-away lang sila at pilit pang pinapahiya ang anak. Gusto ko siyang patayin ng mga oras na iyon. Sa pagtatapos ng palabas, sinabing nakalaya din ang batang tisoy pero pagkaraan at namatay dahil nasagasaan.

Natuwa naman ako dahil pinakita ang isang parte doon na ang mga batang preso ay magkakasama. Isa lang sa kanila ang nagsasalita. Ikinuwento nito kung paano sila mamalimos. Kinakantahan ang mga sasakyang nakahinto sa may trapik layt ng "Jubilee Song". Nagbigay pa nga ng sampol. At sa dulo ng pelikula, ipinakita ang parehong grupo ulit ng bata. Ang parehong bata na kumakanta ang nagkwentong puyat sila. Pinilit nilang libangin ang mga sarili ng nakalipas na gabi sa pag-awit. Kinanta niya ito. Isang kantang marahil ay natutunan sa paaralan. Sinasabi ng awit na sundin ang mga magulang, gumawa ng mabuti at mag-aral. Sa wakas, nakita ko siyang nagbigay ng isang matamis na ngiti. Bata pa rin sila na mababaw ang kaligayahan. Kahit papano, nakita ko sa isang saglit na sila'y masaya.

Bad! Bad!

Yeah yeah..I'm a bad daughter. Complaining like that?! Very wrong, I know. I'm happy with my parents! It's normal to hate them sometimes.

Home Is Where the Heart Is

It's been 84 years...and I can still smell the fresh paint... Haha..it's been a while.. Good to be back.

A few weeks ago I was super excited about Christmas..well I still am.. But Mom and Dad are bitching about us, yet again...everynight. They talk about how we're such pains in their asses and how we just embarrass them to their family and friends. Dad literally wants to kick us out of the house so we'd learn how to live independently. Actually, they're not talking about all of us. They're talking about my forever rebellious sister (now whoever thought I was a frikking rebel?!). I understand them. Most of the times, she really can be a bitch. Just last night, the typhoon was really bad and Mom asked her to go home and her answer was "BAKET?!" Urgh. Like heller?! Obviously, Mom was just concerned, didn't want her to drive alone in the middle of the storm and a reply like that would just make you hit the ceiling. Or at times, when she'd prefer to go out with her friends when it's family night (there's really no official family night, but it's an understanding) with the car eventhough she's perfectly aware we're trying to save on gas. But on a few occasions, she's okay.

I guess I've had my share of that, but maybe not to the point when Dad wants to slap me..well maybe Mom does. Just now, she left for work really mad about everything..as usual. Gawwd, I really don't understand why they're like that! She makes such a big deal about me exceeding my Globe Plan. Before, I paid her everytime but then my sisters never did. So why would I? It's frikking unfair. Now that I don't have any savings, (thank you very much for my weekly allowance that never comes), I have to pay my excess. With what?! I literally have twenty bucks in my wallet. Okay, I just went to the bazaar during the weekend (as if...they never take us shopping..I do my own shopping with my own money). Besides, I pay for the frikking toll!!! That's what..P200-300 a week. Now what's left with my allowance? Let's see...P200 a week?! And they still expect me to have savings?! P200 is good for a day, 2 days max..and I go to school 5 days a week! They've gone totally insane.

Where was I? Oh yeah.. Last Friday, I told my Mom that I'm gonna be out late because my blockmates and I are going out since it's Patty's birthday. She said okay. I asked if we could use the car, which we can't. She asked for me to look for a way home, but at first, I didn't have one. So the plan was that my brother's picking me up in Glorietta at 8 (8! Right after dinner!). But turns out, my friend could bring me home. My phone's battery has run out so I used my friend's phone to let them know I have a way home already. She brought me home at 1230am. The next morning, my Mom was asking my why the fuck I wasn't home by 1am (of course she never used the F word..I'm just mad). I WAS HOME BY 1230!! Urgh! I mean, what does she expect?! I was lucky my friend wanted to bring me home! I mean, it's those little things and a lot of other things that tick me off! For example: cooking. I never liked cooking. I just eat. Everytime Mom cooks, she gets really frustrated that we never cook with her. First and foremost, ever since I was little, she never asked us to cook. Secondly, she never taught us to cook!!! Well now, my 2 sisters regularly cook. I just choose not to. So I really hate it when she whines that we don't cook!!! And when we do, she'd complain why we never do what she taught us to do. Is she nuts or is she nuts?! Arghhh... But to set the records straight. I CAN COOK. I just cooked for my brother's party and it was good...it was REALLY good.

My parents think I'm the high maintenance child (not really, but compared to my siblings, I am) I know this though I'm not proud to be one. Maybe I just can't help it. What can I say? I hate commuting, I hate going to central market. I go to the gym, I have my haircuts. We all have our issues. One's "The Rebel Without a Cause", the other's "The Dumb Physicist", I'm "The Bum Spender" and the last one's...jeez..I dunno..does she have issues? Maybe she's "The Dummy". Maybe they're happy with her since they're totally in control. But the thing is, I'm happy 80% of the time when I'm just with my siblings. But when we're with our parents..it's like.. 80% chaos. The 20% fun is when we go out to watch movies, when we're really not talking. I mean even on vacations! They just can't help but complain about us. Welcome to the Dark Side.