What's going on with the world?!

Turns out there's a lotta shit happening in the world that I just found out!

1. The war between Lebanon and Israel. I've kind of heard about it the other day..but just like any other important news that I should know about, I shook it off. There were thousands of Filipinos who died because of a bombing in Lebanon. Shucks..the war I know about is between US and Iraq..damn!!!

2. That gang rape victim, Nicole. I also heard about that..but I wasn't interested. I dunno what happened, or how it happened...or why it's such a big frikkin deal.

3. Impeachment shit is up again..but then again..who cares?

That's why I love my dad so much. He gets me informed about the important things. Stuff with "added value," as he would say.

I dunno what else it happening out there! If not for the dinner I had with my dad tonight, I would have cared less. I'm a freak who doesn't know anything important! When I go online, I go straight to my emails, and then head on to my favorite websites: bryanboy.com, perezhilton.com and celebworld.org, or I go to torrentz.com to see what's a cool movie to download..what's wrong with me?! I'm so absorbed with all these bullshit. I always look forward to going to the mall and check out the coolest stuff, or what's showing in the theaters. I should really get a fucking life. I can't even get to wake myself up in the morning like I used to, to work out. I've become a total slob. If I keep this up, I'm no better than the stupid Americans who think Manila is some kind of state in the US.

Is this just a phase for me? Or am I just totally indifferent with everything? I mean..everything! I think I've gone numb.

Take my faith for example. I've become so indifferent, I go to church just so I wouldn't have to argue with my parents. It's an obligation, right? It's the same thing over and over again since childhood. What they're saying to me every Sunday isn't new. I don't pray anymore, in fact. Well..I do but not the way I used to pray. It's not that I have refused to pray..it's just that I feel it's kind of useless. As long as I'm not hurting anyone and I'm okay...I'm cool. I dunno what have turned me to this way...

Maybe that's why I find so much pleasure in all the material things around me, that I've lost touch with the world. I still value the people around me of course, but I feel like, I've become totally self-centered. I'm responsible for myself and there's no one else I can count on but me. Sounds really evil but at the same time, pathetic...mostly just pathetic.