Blood on the Ground, Neverland, Nose Ring,

I don't wanna talk to Ate Erin now. Good thing she's not here tonight. I swear! She's been a good ate..but sometimes I can't believe how selfish she can be. See, Zaza and I were gonna go to Town and we asked her to just drop us off there since she was going to La Salle. I've been asking her what time she was gonna leave and she kept saying after lunch..no exact time. And then she suddenly took a bath and she was preparing to leave. So I told her to wait for us. That was about 1210pm. I told her to wait for us til 1230. And we were done by 1220! And she left! She didn't even let us know. Man! That just pissed me off. I called her and she kept putting the fucking phone down. I really can't believe her. It was a simple favor and she couldn't wait?! I mean it's not like Town's out of the way or something. And her reason was she needed to be there by 1pm. Hah! First of all..it's not traffic during that time, and! She's gonna use the Skyway..that's gonna take her 30 mins..in fact even less. DOI! Grrr...Well..I was desperate to get out of the house to watch Peter Pan and get a new swimsuit. So we took the jeep and mission accomplished.

It's Marga's birthday today! I have never been sure when her exact birthday is. I just knew that it's April. Hehe. So I texted Ida and I asked her that's about 7pm already! And Marga's birthday is today! I didn't forget! I just didn't know. Hehe. And what's so funny is that she's been texting me all day asking me about the plans for Saturday. We've exchanged more than 10 messages and I didn't greet her! Haha... So being a good friend that I am...I tried sending her a MMS..see I captured a couple of pictures from Peter Pan from the movie house..yes..I know it's illegal..but the movie is just visually..very nice. I mean the way they showed this perfect picture of Neverland. If you haven't seen it yet..go see it..NOW! Haha.. Going back to Marga..I tried sending her this really cute picture with Peter Pan and the lost boys looking down at the camera (from Wendy's point of view)..and with it was the message I wanted to tell her..since she's in deep shit now. But it failed like 5 times. So I decided to give her my message..and I just told her my message which was: 'Happy Bday! Sometimes we wish that we'd be kids forever so we don't have to face these grown up problems. But these problems make who we are..Better people.' With the explanation that it was supposed to be attached to this Peter Pan picture. Well she asked me to send the pic anyway, which I did. And she said it was the best message she got all day! Awwww...

And don't we all feel like that sometimes?! Like we wish we'd be kids again worrying nothing about college or the future..as long as we have a toy to play with we're fine. A lot of shit has been happening to me and I've been down many times. There was even a time when I was just so down and I didn't know why. I dunno if other people feel that way..but when I did..I kept on thinking why I was miserable. Well I didn't really know why I felt that way (I don't understand myself sometimes!). And now I know. I felt like I wasn't in control of my life. Ever since I can remember, I do all the things that people tell me..what pleases them. Most of the time, I'm pressured to be someone I'm not and I hated people and I hated myself for that. And that explains my nose ring. It's not because of the frikking F4..or Christina Aguilera. (DOI!) It was just a message I wanted people to see. At that time, I felt like I was tied up..can't say what I wanted to say or do what I wanted to do. It's a psychological thing for me actually. It wasn't a form of rebellion. It was purely for me. I felt like with that nose ring, I could convince myself that I could be in control..and amazingly, I am now in the driver's seat! Not to mention I really like my nose ring. It's cute! I mean..even if people stare at me..I don't give a shit! Say whatever man... And..I just got a lotta inspiring shit from my friends which are helpful of course. (My friends are the best..I swear).

That's it for tonight!

Course Card Day

Course card day. Freaking OBLICON (Obligations and Contracts)..I got a 1.5..didn't make it in the Dean's List. Oh well. Who gives a shit anyway? Right..my parents.

Oh yeah. I just started reading The Da Vinci Code. That was the main reason I'm online at this time. I wanna see the Vetruvian Man. Wow. I'm only in the 5th chapter but I swear that book's amazing. The more I read, the more intigued I get. I wish someone would make a movie about it. I don't read a lot of books cos I fall asleep halfway. Haha. Really. Unless it's really interesting. I didn't even read Harry Potter. Well I tried reading it but I didn't finish it. I didn't try reading Lord of the Rings. The movie is so freaking good. I don't think I still have to read the books. Though I can't wait til Tito Bernie arrives from the US. I asked him to buy me White Fluffy Clouds. Haha. Right. It's a book written by the genius Brandon Boyd.

Hmm..my high school friends and I are arranging this outing for Saturday. I'm organizing it actually because I told them the best place we could go to. Out of town but not so out of town. (Does that make sense?). I told them we could go to Westgrove. So I've been asking my mom stuff so I could reserve the place or something. And guess what?! She didn't answer me. That happens all the time. I really don't get it. I think this is the third day I've been asking her. And she reacts as if it's the first time I told her about it. It's really getting into my nerves! At least she said she'd give me the number to call. And when I asked her if I could borrow the car...same frikking reaction..which was no reaction. GRRRR!!! I really don't get it!!! Relax...hhmmm...she really gets into my nerves sometimes..or make that most of the time. But what could I do? She's inevitable.

First Entry...

Haha..thanks to my cousin Ikay (who is currently obsessing over some guy named Homer..haha!), I now have one of these online journals. It's been ages since I had one of these. I think I was in 1st year high school when I last wrote something in my journal. Written on its cover was "CENSORED". Yeah right. I always caught my two sisters reading them. HAH! So I read theirs too. Reciprocity. So I guess this time, the only difference is that my journal's out in the open. So why am I starting this onlime thingie? It's summer vacation and I have nothing to do. A year ago, I would have been anticipating this summer vacation and plan out everything I should do like tennis lessons MWF, driving lessons, TTHS. Well, last year, like all the other summers of my entire life, I did plan it..but that time I was to frikking lazy that I didn't do a thing. Haha. I'm now 19...already too old not to know how to drive.

What a boring first entry. Haha. I'd be amazed if you'd even reach this part. So I'll tell more about me to make this thing longer. FYI: I'm STILL obsessing over Incubus. I'm just so happy that my barkada and my cousins share this obsession. If not for them, I would have gone crazy. I swear. Well..I've gone crazy actually..but with these people around, being crazy's not so bad because all of us have gone nuts already. See, it was my ultimate dream to meet Brandon Boyd. But never in wildest imagination did I think that I would actually meet him. But if I did..what happened was beyond what I was wishing for. I actually talked to him face to face and we shared a moment. There was verbal AND physical contact. I think there was also spiritual?! Hahaha! Gawwwddd...1 month later and I can still recall that day: March 11, 2004. Well.. I wouldn't want to narrate the story here. It's better if I tell the story live...with visuals. Haha. Hayy... Wow. Thinking about that day just made me high...again. And I think about that day so many times a day. I actually do not need any herbal stuff to make me high! Amazing.