Bangkok, February 23-27, 2006

Went to Bangkok for my International Marketing class. Woohoo. My first out of country for this year. It was fun. I was able to experience Thailand, that's what I can say. I was finally able to shop in Jatuchak, Pratunam, Baioke, Suan Lum. Jatuchak is the really big Divisoria. Ironic. I've never been in Divisoria but I've gone to Jatuchak. Though I'd never go there again. Everything was cheap there but it's always a must to haggle in those places. Some vendors would be so sweet, while some would get mad when you asked for a really low price. I've never seen so many tinagges in my life and I never want to see any more. My knees, legs, feet and my back hurt. I was able to shop though. I know it's really bad that I didn't give my friends anything. I just gave stuff to my family..particularly to my siblings. I bought a lot to myself, but duhh..as if my sisters ain't using it. For my parents, not so much. They already have everything and they've been there anyway.

I wanted to enter their gigantic malls (4x the size of Shangri-La, they say) but the people whom I was with didn't want to because they want to buy a lot of stuff. I was lucky though, there was midnight madness in Chit Lom, their own version of Rustan's where everyone's beautiful and stylish, the stuff are quite expensive. I splurged on a pair of shoes and a silk top (which I'll be wearing on Saturday..haha!).

Although the main purpose of going there was shopping (or the seminar..haha), I was able to see their culture. Thailand is generally a buddhist country so I was able to see their temples: the Common Temple (for the common people) and the Royal Temple (built by the Royal Family in 1872). In the Common Temple was the Golden Buddha. That Buddha before was wrapped in cement but it was stolen and then the thieves cracked it open, shattering the cement into pieces and found that inside was another buddha purely made of gold. As for the Royal Temple, there lies the biggest Buddha in Bangkok. I forgot exactly how long it was. It was built by the Royal Family along with the temple so that's where they worship. There was a long line of 110 bowls where in I dropped coins for ONE wish to come true. I hope it does. :)

We also went to Pattaya. A 2-hour bus ride from Bangkok. It's a very commercialized beach. There was Hard Rock Cafe and tall hotels. We went to Coral Island riding the super speedboat (Thais drive fast!!!). It's worse than Boracay. It was covered with umbrellas and a million tiangges. It wasn't a very nice sight. The water is clear and the sand is white though. The beaches here are still the best. Was able to parasail. I loved that.

The food was great. Tom Yam, Pad Thai and milk tea are my favorites. After shopping, we'd always go to the street vendor of Pad Thai and milk tea. It would re-energize all of us then we'd go to the Suan Lum, the night market.

Of course, going to Bangkok without checking out the sex shows would not be complete. We checked out the sex show...more like the "Pekpek show." Stuff coming out of the vaginas of those women: blades, ropes, neon flowers. They had magic tricks: a bottle of Coke with water will be sucked in and then she'll transfer it to an empty bottle, but this time Coke will come out. Pekpek writing "Welcome to Thailand," shooting darts, blowing trumpets and cigarettes...Eewww. There was the pekpek apir which was just out of this world. Then the sex show. Literally. It was gross. The women were old. They had cuts in their lower abs that showed they've given birth. Then for the sex show, the woman looked so young and she was the prettiest. She was so fragile. I pity all those women. People all over the world come over to see them do those things. It was degrading. (What was annoying was that they were playing the APL song during one of the exhibitions...I wanted to cover my face!). On Bended Knee will never be the same to me. Hayy buhay nga naman!!!

Got home yesterday very tired. I had to unpack and then get back to work for Green Evo. Finalizing all the things, etc. It's already driving me crazy... I need to get that Thai massage after all this!!!


**I don't have pasalubongs as always.. I was so stressed I decided to splurge on myself. Selfish, I know...forgive me. It's my birthday present for me. :)

The big buddha in the Royal Temple


Wishie wishie...


With Jotz and Baffee still at the Royal Temple


Noelle, Jotz, Baff, Me and Miss T and our fave Milk Tea


Miss T, Jotz, Noelle and me in Pattaya (told ya it ain't nice!)


Me and the tiger...(sabog ako..wtf with the hair?!)


Breakfast before heading to the airport


Happy to go home!!!

GREEN EVOLUTION!

It's been literally months and I've worked hard for this event. So YOU better go and support me. It's for a good cause and I promise, it will be fun.

A fundraising for The Lasallian Institute for the Environment.

Fashion show by Levi's and Cinderella

Rinka, Splitcide, Diana Rising, Severo and The Bloomfields are playing...

Cats Bar and Disco New World Renaissance Hotel (across Greenbelt)

ALL THAT for only P180!!!

Inclusive of food and drinks.

Fun starts at 6pm.

Be there. March 4, 2006

Sorry's Just Not Good Enough

Bitching for a week is fine. Girls have excuses when they bitch for a week. They can always say that it's that time of month. Perfect excuse, right? But what if it goes on for three weeks? Really unacceptable. I have used Valentine's Day as an excuse but it just doesn't sound right. I have been harassed by OSAC, stressed with Green Evo, plus there's all these school work I have to finish. I have midterms next week! Are these excuses good enough to justify the way that I have been acting lately? Let's see...

1. I've screamed at my seatmate who did nothing wrong to me. After almost 2 weeks of him not talking to me (which was torture because he's really fun to be with), we finally did and we're good, although I still think he hates me.
2. I shouted at my logistics head over the phone and when we talked face to face for jeopardizing my event which until now, is not approved. Everytime I see him, I can't help myself from making hirits to him and his 'stupidity.'
3. I kept on asking my other friend who was able to close a deal with a sponsor. Thing is, I act like I don't appreciate all his efforts. At least, he's a the only person who tells me when I'm being a bitch, and that I should just stop.
4. I find myself getting into arguments with a lot of people just because I don't get what I want or hear what I want to hear.

I've apologized to the people I've shouted at, screamed at, yelled at, argued with. But I feel like saying stupid things, throwing BF's... for three weeks (!!!) ..sorry is just not good enough. Diba?

Truth is, I dunno what has gotten into me. For some reason I'm always in a bad mood and it's like I'm always about to snap and have another bitch fit. I'm lucky to have friends who understand my moodswings. I dunno if it's moodswings because the changes are sometimes too overwhelming that even I don't quite understand. I mean, my mornings go perfectly well...I'm my usual jolly self. But when I start meeting up with different people for projects...my mood suddenly shifts and you could see it in my face that I'm just pissed. It's different when I'm unhappy about something, but when I'm pissed, my mouth could go on and on like an armalite, blurting hurtful words I don't really mean.

I am not trying to justify the way that I've been acting. It seems that I just have no control over it, or I just dunno how to control myself yet. I hate it when I'm acting like a brat. And I hate it that people would say, that's just how I am. These are the kinds of attitude that needs to be changed and I won't be able to if the people around me allow it. But it's not like I've always been like this...or have I?!

Lonely Hearts No More

Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Of course, upon entering North Gate I saw guys holding flowers pysching up themselves to give it to their girls. For my first class, thank goodness there weren't a lot of girls who had flowers. For my Services Marketing, however, almost everyone did. 4 girls were even serenaded. I swear, it was like the Chamber had a concert there. I hated it. Yes. For the first time, I'm bitter on Vday.

Had a date with myself in Haiku in Greenbelt. (O say mo?!). Got a fake white flower for eating there. Haha! So why was I there alone on Valentine's day, you ask? Very simple. It wasn't really planned. I had a meeting in New World Hotel for my event at 230pm but I got there at 130pm and I was starving. It was Valentine's day so I decided to treat myself. Hehe. Simple as that.

I was supposedly to meet Brian in school and we'd drink. We were talking about it Tuesday last week. We're gonna drink in school. Cool but a very risky idea, eh? My idea to do it in school. Haha! But there were so many requirements to be accomplished for my event. I had to finish it this week because I'll be leaving for Bangkok on the 23rd and I'll be there til the 28th, which means I'll have to delegate all the stuff I'm doing to other people. So the plan to drink ourselves out of misery didn't push through...hayyyy. Instead, I went back to school, had a meeting with my logistics team. Ironically, none of us had dates. After the meeting, I was supposed to go home, but I bumped into the girls in our tambayan and stayed for another hour just singing old, mushy ballads for everyone to hear. It was fun. Then went home to drown myself back to work. But my YM friends surprisingly were in a mood to chat. What's Vday without the single people talking about their angst and frustration with each other, right? Haha!!!

Lonely hearts no more. The good thing about single people getting together during Vday is that we don't feel alone. We know that there are others like us hating Hearts Day just because. We spend that time to justify and rationalize why we're single and convince ourselves we're happy as we are (defense mechanism, I guess), when in reality, inside, we're just dying to spend the next Vday with someone special and wish we won't have to be with that singles group ever again.

Focus!

I'm trying to focus but my eyes deceive me. - Incubus

Goodness. I'm addicted to Diner Dash. I should be doing my paper due tomorrow..but obviously I'm updating my blog and I've just stopped myself once again from playing Diner Dash. Hayyy... I need FOCUS as usual...

I look pretty good in this pic, eh? ;)

Stress!!!

Plans for Valentine's? Duh.

On Saturday: Toni & Jet, Marga, Ida, Abby & Gaston, Kathy (hopefully), Karla (hopefully) and moi will be going to Eurostar!!! Woohoo.. That means I'll starve for the whole week so I have money. I'm gonna take all the rides that will make me puke and shout on the top of my lungs. I hafta release all the negative energy mehn!! Can't wait!

My parents will be spending Vday in Bangkok (ahhmmm....?!?! hahahah!). Woohoo..Can't wait to go there myself.

But wait!!! Hafta explain this first:

“Education is a right, not a privilege. Therefore, governments ought to provide universal education to their citizens. In the Philippines, the solution to the educational crisis is for government to spend more money, say by restricting and re-negotiating our debt payments, then pouring the money into raising teacher salaries to improve educational outcomes, and building more public schools and SUCs to ensure access to the poor. After all, we know that education is the best way of acquiring skills that one can use to achieve mobility in society!”

Charba!

Highlight the statements that fit you.

Italisize those that bother you.


01. I've never had a boyfriend.
02. I still watch cartoons sometime.
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.
08. Because I read too many books.
09. I want piercings.
10. Because I have none, not even my ears.
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I believe in God.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm sometimes a loud person.
23. A boy/ girl shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, but not wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. Sometime I am a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping.
34. I'm obsessed with Hazelnuts favor.
35. I have a couple of close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 10 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.
38. I hate popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I like the feeling of snow.
43. I love Winter.
44. I'm addicted to AIM.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family...
48. I loathe hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love pug.
54. I am short for my age...*sigh*
55. I don't always like the way I look.
56. I still wanna cut myself.
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
59. I like to be with my friends.
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to pepper.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to public school for the first year of high school.
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind.
72. I hate white jeans, even though they are sexy.
73. I'm online a lot.
74. I have an annoying brother.
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a traveler.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother did die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing.
90. I have a cute car.
91. I love glitter when they are not messy.
92. I sometimes wish I was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94. I love to have fun.
95. I get amused easily.
96. I'm procrastinator. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.
100. I hate seafood.
101. Hugs help me feel better.
102. I am white.
103. I hate the beach.
104. I think about my significant other at least 999999999999 times a day.
105. I walk around my house naked.

All The Things That I've Done

I couldn't help but wonder; Inside every confident, driven, single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved? - Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and the City)

This is my friend's shout out in Friendster today. Pretty cool. Not applicable to me because I'm beyond repair. I'm a disaster.

Hayyy nako. I dunno why I'm edgy lately. I just am!!! It's fucking annoying. I keep on blurting things that I don't really mean. It's uncontrollable. Damn it!!!

Now, I just hate myself for it.

Argh!

blah blah

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Bad mood today..hayyy...

Losing My Mind Again

I'm stressed again. Everything seems to be going well with my event which is good of course. I've spent almost 6 months planning it. IT SHOULD go well. But I can't help but think of all the possibilities that could go wrong. Grrr... I am paranoid. But I guarantee that it'll be one hell of a night so you better come. MARCH 4, 2005 Cats Disco and Bar at the New World Renaissance Hotel in Makati City. Doors will open at 6pm. Be there.

It could be because of all the stress of combining school work and extra curricular that I'm feeling really irritable. Or maybe simply because it's February. I hate this month. I just hate this month.